Miss Mary's Blog

Scale

2011-10-28T19:13:00.000-05:00

Have to remind myself of this.
Food for the day done. Water consumed. Gonna enjoy my weekend.

Update. Square One. No restriction!

2011-10-27T20:54:00.000-05:00

Recently had struggles with lap band knowing I was too tight.
Too many episodes of not keeping food down, Not able to eat but a few bites at a time. Not even a
a 1/2 c of food. So after puking up water cause it wouldnt go down I made that appointment for an unfill. I was told on the last fill to just wait it out. They thought I irritated my opening with supplements ugh! Then come to find out I was too tight. Tight enough that even liquid was making my pouch dilate over my band slightly.
Not good at all. Result taking out 3 cc of fluid and leaving me wide open. So since Im wide open it was suggested i go back on HCG by my nutritionist so as to not lose ground on my weight loss.So yah! This s my first week back on HCG and Im hungry. Back to 500 calories a day which Wouldn't be so bad if I had some restriction. I still get enough protein but ugh! Boring. Well it is quite possible I could lose a good 30 pounds by Christmas and then I should be healed up enough for a fill. keeping my fingers crossed :( to say Im not discouraged is an understatement.

Im just plugging along trying to work this band.

Exercise

2011-09-29T21:48:00.000-05:00

Ive been reading where it takes 21 days to form a habit.
I guess that would include both good and bad habits. Mine that I am attempting to form is of course the exercise habit. Ive done well so far. Day three lol I did do three miles today though I had to split it in twp sessions. I tried to walk around lunch time but the sun was burning my recently chemically peeled face. Not good. S0 I did one then after dinner did two more. Score! Felt accomplished. Now 18 more days of some sort of physical exercise. After dinner and exercise I updated my fitness pal and it said I was 1014 calories short for food intake. Not good cause you have to eat to lose weight. Ate a protein bar and ended up only having 700 calories after taking off what was burned during exercise. Trying to figure this whole band thing out. Footnote stupid scale hasnt moved hardly at all last few weeks and is making me pissy :(

Update

2011-09-27T18:00:00.001-05:00

On Monday the 19th I had a fill which brought me up to 6 cc. It has been over a week and I still am not able to eat solid foods at every meal. I am happy to report I have a good sense of restriction. That is so nice. What I dont like is all the noise I am making even over liquids. We have a home group once a month and I had to come out of the closet about WLS. I was making so much racket I had to tell. I had to admit that it was the one thing I could not control and it surprised everyone that I was worried about what people would think cause everyone knows I have a "I dont give a crap attitude" about what people say about me. I confessed it was embarrassing cause I am such a control freak and it embarrassed me that this was one thing I let control me.

My nutritionist is on a HCG kick and suggested I go on it for a month. She said I could easily reach 200 pounds by Christmas. I am tempted and she believes I wont struggle as much as I did before cause what she has is pharmaceutical strength. Im going to go for the consultation and check it out. Upside is Im already used to doing so little food that should be a breeze.

Diet or Lifestyle?

2011-09-17T15:30:00.000-05:00

Question I saw on Profwlsworks youtube, Are you on a diet or is is this a lifestyle?

I can honestly say right now it has been a diet. I NEED to make this a lifestyle.
What does that require? A definite conscious mind change.

Positive things Im doing. One is to find something positive about myself everyday. Trying to focus on eating quality foods. Only trying to eat when Im hungry. But not get to the point where Im so hungry that I reach for something quick and inevitably bad for me. I have increased my workouts. Out of 7 days I have really busted my a$$ for three with aerobics( yes needs to be 5 but life gets in the way). Wearing my Kutting Weight Sweat Suit. OMG makes you really sweat. I also purchased Bali Thigh Slimmer Belts. I have been using them on my fat arms. Mind you I never sweat on my arms. These babies make my arms sweat. I bought them from Amazon.

The Band: I can feel myself being able to eat more than I should, not staying satisfied for as long as I should. Some days I am truly hungry one hour after eating. Not good. Defeats the purpose of the band giving satiety. So scheduled a visit for a fill. Haven't had one in two months and do believe I need one. I dread it also at the same time. As I have difficulty with every fill.

Fighting the comparing my own progress with the progress of others.
I find myself initially rejoicing at others accomplishments but then inwardly resenting and turning it against myself. Im human. I know others feel the same way but we are all individuals and depending on our age, lifestyle, gene pool all that crap does help determine what and how we respond to the lap band. Yes its a tool and I have to learn how to use it for me.

Lifestyle Reminders

1. Eat 5 times per day. 3 meals 2 snacks

2. Eat only at planned meal times; no grazing.

3. Eat only good quality foods; protein first

4. Eat slowly; chew 20-30 minutes per meal.

5. Keep portion sizes small; 1 cup maximum.

6. Stop eating when you are no longer hungry.

7. No beverages while eating.

8. Drink 64 FO fluids/day ( no cal) in between meals.

9. At least 30 min/day of physical activity.

10. Take multi-vitamin/mineral supplements daily

(copied this from a fellow lapbander)

Three Weeks AWOL

2011-09-08T12:28:00.000-05:00

I have been neglectful on the blogging. Bad girl. Last time I checked in I was having trouble with my fill. That has seemed to taper out. To date have lost 47 pounds. Been banded 4 months so thats about 10+ pounds a month which isnt bad. I have lost an additional 9 inches. I discovered I am not coordinated. Decided to sweat with Richard Simmons. I tell you watching girls that are bigger than me do those moves will kick your butt when you realize how out of shape you are. I have been using my facebook account to keep motivated and accountable as well as myfitnesspal on the net and my phone. I love that site cause you can see the nutrient breakdown of what food you put in your mouth.

I am doing Jenny Craig meals when I fix something for the family that I cannot eat with the band or that just isnt healthy for ME. I can happily say I can fit into a size 18 comfortable. Im thrilled with that.

Just bought my second installment of detox regimen. Im doing a liver detox. Then Ill do a metal detox. I found when I do a detox it helps the pounds release.

Stay on the losing bench my friends :)

BYOC Friday

2011-08-19T21:27:00.002-05:00

BYOC Friday!!
It’s Friday so that means.......it’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy!

We answer just a few questions to get to know each other better and to give our blog brains a break!

Copy to your own blog if you wish and ENJOY!

1. How much makeup do you wear daily, how long does it take you and are you loyal to certain brands?

It depends on what or who I am seeing that day. During the week I work at my own office, we own a construction company. Mostly work with men. I usually use a foundation and some lipstick and mascara. If I have meetings with our contracting agency or sub contractors I do a little more primping. Saturdays if I am just staying home and not having visitors I go naked.

2. Repeat question: I’m going to pick a person not knowing your relationship with them (or even if there is one) and you try to describe this person in 5 words/short sentences.

Your oldest paternal aunt.
She is shy, but a very sweet person.

3. Tell me about your first real kiss and how old you were.
Unfortunately I cant remember this as my childhood sucked! I do remember losing my virginity and even younger losing my innocence :(

4. If I gave you $1000.00 and told you that you had to give it to a charity – which charity would you choose and why?

Probably my own. We are building a school in Haiti.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.

Blog land: Blog land I have been abscent and I plan on doing all my catching up this weekend.

Real life: Busy busy busy. My grandson started school so I hope to have some me time to really get in gear with the physical activity.

On The Road

2011-08-07T20:34:00.002-05:00

Discovered that I am not good with eating on the road with this band. Especially when I cant pick the places to eat. I need to stick with salad bars at least I can pick and choose. Al a Ca-rte ordering is expensive. I wasn't able to weigh in but I dont think it will be good. I also got TOM and of course its only been two weeks since it wash here the last time. I started having a protein shake last two mornings it has 50'gs of protein since Im not eating enough. Also I am determined to exercise every day as I have let other things get in the way. Im just not doing good and I need to do better. I am getting discouraged cause it is so slow.

The Waiting Game

2011-08-03T20:08:00.002-05:00

I called in to get a slight unfill as I got filled to 5 cc two weeks ago. I have not gone one day problem free. Inevitably something gets stuck no mater how much I chew. Saturday was the icing on the cake with the uncontrollable vomit episode. My nurse practitioner is gone until the 16th and I would have to drive 3 hours for an unfill. They had a wls physician call me and after much discussion he decided MAYBE it wasn't a prolapse but irritation cause of the capsules and prescription pill I take. When he said it sound like a prolapse I almost panicked. I don't ant this to fail and I don't want to have it taken out. So Im babying it and eating soft foods. My unfill is scheduled on the 17th. Wish me luck.

Scale Ho= Guilt as Charged!

2011-07-31T16:29:00.004-05:00

Have had a hard time since my last fill. Some days Im so tight I can barely get one meal in without a problem. Yesterday we went for Thai food. It was my first time. It was so good. Fresh vegetables lots of spice. I was so tight couldnt get much ate. On the way to our hotel ten minutes into the ride I had to make them pull over cause I got sick. So embarrassing in front of my friends puking my guts up.

My good guy pal came out to give me a Kleenex. My husband of course stayed in the car. Weak kneed guy. He cant even stand the gurgling sounds I have been making with meals. Not sure if this is normal or not.
Dont know if I need an unfill. I dread the fills I hate to keep going back and forth on this.

Only lost a pound this week but thats better than nothing. Would have expected more because of not eating much but all that does is make your body want to hold onto it even more :(

Fridays BYOC

2011-07-29T16:49:00.002-05:00

Copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire! Enjoy!

1. Sun or rain? Roses or tulips? Romantic movie or comedy?
Rain. Makes me want to snuggle with that someone special. Tulips I think are perfect. Roses overdone. Romantic movie. Im not much for movies that make no sense at all.

2. I’ve been sick lately and haven’t eaten in two days – except for ice cream…which leads me to ask – what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?

Butter pecan :)

3. Are you a door locker – in your house and car?
I lock everything.

4. tell me your “go to remedies” for when you are sick?
Only remedy for me is to sleep and sleep some more. Not much of a pill taker.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.
Blogland:

Blogland I have been super lazy. Havent even read much. Life has been so hectic with work and personal. Heat is making us all bitchy. Ive barely made it on here to post scale pic. I promise to do better :P

Weekly Weigh In

2011-07-24T20:03:00.003-05:00

Don't know why the image is crooked :(

I had my second fill this past week. I'm tighter than a virgin. I cant eat in the mornings but I am told this is normal. I do get fuller quicker and am staying satisfied longer. That is a good thing because the last week before fill I could have ate a whole horse. I also had the visit which contributed to the massive hunger.
I am slowly losing. No big numbers but they are moving. I'm back down to wearing alot of 18-20 tops. My ass still isn't getting small in comparison to my top regions.
My food choices are better. Im continuing with the Jenny Craig meals only cause of the convenience of having it already prepared. It saves me from reaching for bad choices. It is an expensive program. I will do it as long as I can. I have to mostly choose chicken foods or ground beef items. They are band friendly. Heres to a new week and moving my butt more. Cooler weather please come soon!

Hooray

2011-07-20T19:37:00.000-05:00

MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter

Weekly Weigh In Week 2

2011-07-17T14:38:00.002-05:00

Down 2.2 pounds since last sunday morning. Its been a struggle all week. But glad to see a lower number.

BOOBS Challenge

Chicken Wings Pt2

2011-07-16T20:23:00.001-05:00

videos

Day 1 of Cleanse

2011-07-11T18:20:00.003-05:00

Got my stash for the 30 day cleanse. One pill in morning and one in the evening for three days. Then after that it will be two in morning then 2 in evening for 30 days. Have to eat clean as possible. Whole foods, plenty of water. After this initial cleanse Im going to do a liver detox and a metal detox. Then my body will be free of toxins. Might as well start fresh as possible.

I am an admitted product junkie.
If its new, smells yummy, looks like I will benefit or just because I heard about if from someone else. I will buy it and try it. I need rehab for this addiction.

I do believe I need to do this to get things moving in right direction. Im also getting rid of household chemicals and going to go green!

Lets see what the husband thinks about it. he already wont eat some healthy stuff I am making. I made a great salad with thinly sliced zucchini cherry tomatoes and red onions with a little garlic seasoning, e.v.o.o, salt, pepper and some feta. It was delicious. He didnt want to even eat it cause the zucchini wasnt fried!

Weekly Weigh In

2011-07-10T14:37:00.002-05:00

I dont know if it is water weight or what but ill take it. Down 7 pounds. Boobs Challenge :)

BYOC

2011-07-08T20:40:00.002-05:00

It’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy…a couple of questions we answer to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste to your own blog and enjoy!

1. If you were asked to symbolize yourself as an animal – which animal would you be?

It would definitely be a cat. Cats only want you to mess with them when they want to be messed with. Dont pet us dont interrupt our naps, we want you when we want you lol. If I come rubbing up against you Im in a good mood. Pet me talk to me lol. My family gets this :)

2. Did you ever play an organized sport – with coaches, rules and scoring? Tell us about it.

No only sports I played were in gym, not very coordinated here. Tried out for cheer leading in catholic school and messed up during a routine. I said a curse word and well the nuns didnt want me on the squad lol.

3. When did you start shaving your legs?

As soon as I could. Not that I had any just wanted to be grown up. I am generally not a hairy person and I love it. I cant stand body hair. hairy men freak me out I think its gross. I would love my man to shave everything off.
This is not attractive:

4. When you’re in a crabby – pissy – want to stab everyone you see kind of mood – what do you do to get out of it or do you revel in it?
I used to eat. Now I just go to my room pout, take a nap or just generally take it on the nearest person. Not really but I have been known to blow when pushed. Most people try not to piss me off. Its better fr them that way :)

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blogland and in real life.

Blog land I try and keep up and read those lap band blogs and comment when I can. I joined the BOOBS challenge see the link to the right.

In real life I finally bought my daughter home from Arkansas she is staying with my mom. I have worked my butt off trying to get caught up with work. I am trying to eat as clean as possible and bought a cleanse I cant wait to take. Drinking my water, taking my vitamins and even rode my bike. I try and ride as long as possible but thats only 15 min and my legs start to tremble and I cant breathe.But I will keep doing it cause I feel like Ive done something.

Focus Off

2011-07-07T21:04:00.002-05:00

10 days ago my daughter was in a terrible car accident. We have been struggling with some of her bad choices that she has made the last year. She is a beautiful intelligent woman who has been spiraling out of control without going into it, to say it has been emotionally hard is an understatement. Just when I am needing to totally focus on me I havent been able to.
Today we brought her home but not to our house but my mom's. I just cant have her here. I am raising her son at moment and it is just best that she gets well somewhere else.

Traveling back and forth between here in Missouri & Arkansas has not been good on my new lifestyle. Have made good choices on food for the most part but have not been able to exercise worth a darn. I did get a nice bike ride one day in but that is about it.
No excuses right. Just life sometimes gets in the way.

Tomorrow is end of work week but its going to be a start of new one for me.
I need to get sElFiSh for awhile. make myself a priority. I have been reading Suzanne Sommers "Sexy Forever" its about the toxicity in our lives. Very good health information.
I knew alot of this information before when I was on HCG and went on a detox. Well that
part I will do again. Going back to eating clean and doing a total body detox with

Ill post some results about the cleanse. My body is at a stand still. Not losing and this is supposed to be my honeymoon stage. :(But Im not gaining. Everyone says they can see a difference so must have lost some inches. The cleanse should help with weight loss by cleaning out my system of all toxins that would keep the fat not wanting to release.

I recommend reading her book.

Calculators

2011-07-07T19:03:00.002-05:00

Body Fat

Body Mass Index

Ideal Body Weight

Calories in Drinks

Calories Burned

Cost of Smoking

Cost of Drinking

A Must Read-Shout Out to Beth

2011-07-04T13:52:00.001-05:00

Made me think so go and read. My favorite was Willie Wonka & the Chocolate Factory the original movie. Makes me wonder what is behind all that. Analysis anyone?

Check out her blog

BythetimeImfifty

Back to Basics- BOOBS Challenge

2011-07-03T20:45:00.003-05:00

Well my first challenge and Im going to go for it.

Click the link you still might have time to get in on it.

Im trying to get my scale pic to load. Unfortunately I never weigh at night and it is showing a 7 pound difference since my last weigh in :(

What do I attribute this to? STRESS for one. (Daughter in hospital) My Starbucks mocha frap might be another but it was only one. And I wasnt eating much else.
Anyhow I am going to get my butt in gear!

BYOC Late

2011-07-03T20:16:00.003-05:00

It's FRIDAY(sunday) so that means it's BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy! We answer a couple of questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste and answer in your own blogs if you'd like!! ENJOY!!

Let's stick with the pictures/exercise and shoe topic and post a picture of (or describe) your work out shoes.

Right now they are skechers. I need a new pair.

Again with the summer/hot theme of the week....what does your current swimsuit look like?

I must say it looks good on me :)

Do you lay out, fake bake, sunless spray tan or use tanning lotion?

I do both fake bake and lay out. I love the sun though my dermatologist told me not to tan my face. So I spf 50 on face. My hubby bought me a tanning bed about 4 years ago before a cruise we were going on. He didnt want to go to a tanning salon. So I got a new present lol.

Describe your week in blogland and in real life.
My week in real life this past week has been terrible. I got a phone call that my daughter took a road trip to Arkansas and had a terrible car wreck(she is ok now) The accident was described as a T Bone. A car pulled out in front of them as they were traveling at a high speed. They rolled the vehicle. Luckily they both were able to be pulled out of the car. She was driving and her boyfriend suffered more injuries. At first we were told she had damage to her left frontal lobe of her brain. But after more scans and alot of prayer she was released from the hospital. Her boyfriend suffered severed liver, punctured lung and broken ribs. So a fun emotional week that hasnt been band friendly.

Scale is Up-Mood is Down

2011-07-03T17:45:00.000-05:00

Back to Basics Weigh In

Here it is.

Some Days You Just Feel Like a Nutt

2011-06-26T13:54:00.003-05:00

Literally that has been the one constant food that I don't have problems with. O and Greek yogurt. It is frustrating how many stuck episodes I have had. I chew religiously but seems that when I wait and have my first meal as lunch I inevitably have problems.

Food that was easily consumed the night before gets stuck the next day.
I am proud of the food choices I have made while at restaurants.
Yesterday my son wanted to go out to lunch before heading to the beach.
I chose grilled chicken breast no skin 1 serving brown beans and a cup of cottage cheese. I only took a couple bites of the cottage cheese and ate half the chicken and almost all the beans. Lunch calories were only 252 calories and over 40 g protein. I later ate the rest of the chicken. It was very yummy.

Woke up early today even though I was skipping Sunday School at church. Im terrible I have my own missions ministry yet I chose to stay home for SS cause our guest speaker was a missionary who wanted both the SS class and the regular service. I opted out lol my bad! Though me and my husky did enjoy a great early morning walk.

Enjoy your day and most of all enjoy your life. Its the only one you get.

Bring Your Own Crazy-Love It

2011-06-24T20:06:00.004-05:00

It's FRIDAY so that means it's BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy!We answer a couple of questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste and answer in your own blogs if you'd like!! ENJOY!!

1. What’s your favorite room in your house?

It was my great room; Here is a picture at Christmas

2. Picture question (or describe if you don't have a camera). Show us a pic of your current favorite earrings!
Favorite earrings now are just studs. I have 6 in one ear two in other, its hot and dont want to wear my danglies.

3. What’s your dress code at work? If you stay at home and went back to work outside the home, what dress code would you prefer?

Dress code is casual. I work with two dozen construction workers, all men. So if I dress up they think someone died :P yesterday was a short skirt and black top with sandals. If I could dress anyway to work this would be a good look lol. I could really crack the whip then. Some of the guys would like it too.

4. Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Real life week consists of waking u around 5-530 am getting to my office at 630 am. Sitting at a desk until 4-5 pm. Coming home cooking the family dinner and unfortunately this week vegetating. I barely get the plants and garden watered and everyday things done around here. In blog land i try and read alot, comment when I can.

Too Much

2011-06-19T19:28:00.002-05:00

Yesterday was a busy busy day. Probably the first weekend since being banded that I was able to really do some yard work. We are having a family cook out for 4th of July. Alot of my husbands family will be here that has never been here and we have been married 20 years :( So I really busted my butt.

I used the tiller in the garden and hoe'd and raked for a total of 3 hours with a few breaks sitting in the shade. I sweated like a pig. Good for the pores :P But late that night had some pain in my port area. I am taking a break and not exercising today. Totally going to veg.

I am trying to really focus on what I want in my life.
So many hidden things to discover about why I got in this position.
Some things I discover and deal with probably wont be pleasant but at same time.
I know it has to be more than just eating bad.

Here is to self discovery. Even if it might be difficult and hard to face.

Chicken Wings Arms

2011-06-18T08:03:00.005-05:00

I am wanting to avoid the dreaded chicken wing arms. Found this here:
Chicken Wing Arms

Overhead Triceps Extensions
1. Stand upright, with your feet shoulder width apart.
2. Hold your dumbbell directly above your head with arm fully extended. Clasp elbow with free hand for support.
3. Slowly let your elbow fold so the dumbbell is lowered behind your head.
4. Extend your arm back to the starting position. Repeat for the desired number of reps and switch arms.

French Presses
1. Lie flat on a bench. Hold the dumbbells directly above your chest with palms facing each other.
2. The Dumbbells should be just about touching each other.
3. Keeping your shoulders locked, let your elbows fold so the dumbbells are lowered down to either side of the head.
4. Extend both your arms back to start position and repeat

Triceps Kickbacks
1. Stand upright next to a bench. Place one arm and leg on the bench. Your upper body should be parallel to the ground.
2. Holding the dumbbell raise your elbow so your upper arm is parallel to the ground. Your elbow should be bent at right angles.
3. Extend your elbow so your entire arm is parallel to the ground.
4. Slowly return to the start position and repeat for the desired number of reps before changing arms

Diamond Pushups
1. Lie face down on the floor with your hands palm down, fingers pointing straight ahead, and aligned at the nipple line.
2. Place your hands in the centre of your chest and form a diamond shape with your index fingers and thumbs.
3. Your feet should be at hip width with your toes on floor.
4. Extend the elbows and raise your body off the floor.
5. Lower your entire body (legs, hips, trunk, and head) 4-8 inches from the floor.
6. Return to the start position by extending at the elbows and pushing your body up.
7. Remember to keep the head and trunk stabilized and in a neutral position by isometrically contracting the abdominal and back muscles.
8. Never fully lock out the elbows at the start position and avoid hyperextension of the low back.

Dinner Tonight

2011-06-17T20:15:00.002-05:00

This will be a repeat. So good.

White Chili

Makes 4 servings.

Prep Time: 5 minutes

Cook Time: 15 minutes

1 tablespoon vegetable oil

1 pound boneless skinless chicken breasts, cut into 3/4-inch cubes

1 package McCormick® White Chicken Chili Seasoning Mix

1 cup water

1 can (15 ounces) white beans, undrained

1. Heat oil in large skillet on medium-high heat. Add chicken; cook and stir 5 minutes or until browned.

2. Stir in Seasoning Mix, water and beans. Bring to boil. Reduce heat to low; cover and simmer 10 minutes.

Corn & Chicken Chili: Stir in 1 can (8 3/4 ounces) whole kernel corn, drained or 1 cup frozen corn kernels with the beans.

Tomato & Chicken Chili: Stir in 1 can (14 1/2 ounces) diced tomatoes, drained or 1 cup chopped fresh tomatoes with the beans.

per serving

Calories: 307

Fat: 7 g

Carbohydrates: 28 g

Cholesterol: 70 mg

Sodium: 510 mg

Fiber: 5 g

Protein: 33 g

First Fill

2011-06-15T20:07:00.001-05:00

Today was my first fill. Yippie cause I was starting to have real hunger issues last few days.
I had 3 cc by the time I left the doctors office.First she filled me to 4 then when nothing passed backed out of it until she settled for a 3. Hope this goes well. Watching the process of liquid pass slowly really gives you perspective on your lap band as a tool. I have to chew like never before after watching how liquid has a hard time passng.

They also have put me on a strict diet in my opinion.
Not so much counting calories but actually telling me what to eat and when.

Breakfast: either two eggs cooked with a little olive oil or pam or my Atkins bar :)

Lunch: Salad w/protein. She said no dressing except a little olive oil. I talked her into a little spritx of like rasberry vinegar or cider vinegar also.

Dinner: Protein and a vegetable.

Snacks: 1/4 c. almonds or piece of fruit.

Seems pretty hardcore :) Im already doing that but I guess being told what to do. I am rebellious and I shouldnt be.

Some interesting things was watchig my pouch expand when the fluid wouldt pass.
That was pretty awesome. Just like filliig a balloon with air.

What I hate is the liquid diet but it is necessary and useful.

Boy am I glad I had a mini omelette for breakfast :P

One Month Lap Banded

2011-06-11T16:54:00.002-05:00

Today marks one month since being banded. I did the math because I spent almost 18,000 on WLS every pound lost equals $155.00 dollars. To me that is money well spent. Highlights this week is a three pound loss (465 dollars lol) My lumps and bumps are smoothing out. You know what I mean cottage cheese lumps on legs. I think about how I want my sexy legs back. I have awesome calves very muscular and sexy but the thighs yuk! Now they are just smoothing out. No lumps.

I have a mini skirt waiting for me :P

First day in over a week I went over my calorie limit. Not bad. I average 700 calories a day and today was 1053

Accountabilty

It Moved

2011-06-07T21:00:00.003-05:00

Nope not talking about my bowels lol. Not this time :P Scale hasnt moved in days it seems. Havent been discouraged just figured the big ride was over and now I really had to work at it. I have been putting that sauna suit on every morning for the last three days along with a lotion that is supposed to make you sweat more and get on treadmill. I naturally dont sweat alot. So it helps. Scale finally moved with a pound loss. So yeah Im happy. Then night time s a killer for me. Always was a snacker. So I walk again for 30 minutes this time at night but outside.

Things I Dont Want to Know

2011-06-06T18:06:00.002-05:00

After reading alot of posts on lapbandtalk.com I have come away with not wanting to know a few things.

The main thing is that I do not want to learn how to cheat the band. I do not understand wanting to cheat the band. I am self pay and that would be like burning the hard earned money to pay for it.

I have skipped over posts relating to this subject.

Something I don't want to ever experience again is a stuck feeling. I haven't had a fill and casually was chewing seedless grapes when I swallowed one WHOLE. It was almost immediate discomfort then serious pain. I freaked. I prayed. I tried to belch, burp, anything. I pounded on my chest bent over and tried to puke it up. Well it finally went somewhere, not up. Scared the living crud out of me.

I have to watch this. Also chewing gum. I have in the past swallowed. Bad idea with the band.

Some more randomness on lap band stuff:

Trying to find ways to get high protein that is not animal based, this list shows all sources of protein.

Good High Protein List

Protein

2011-06-05T18:17:00.003-05:00

I am trying to research new ways to get more protein in my diet. Here is something I found on the Atkins website about portion eye balling your protein.

FOOD VISUAL

1 ounce meat, poultry, tofu, etc.	Small matchbox/remote car key
3 ounces meat, poultry, tofu, etc.	Deck of cards/cell phone
8 ounces meat, poultry, tofu, etc.	Slim paperback book
3 ounces fish	Checkbook
1 ounce hard cheese	Four dice

Kutting Weight and Sweet Sweat

2011-06-04T18:39:00.002-05:00

Decided to get off my a$$ and jumped on treadmill. I decided why not try this new product I bought. It is a sweat suit. Am I crazy. YES. It was already 90+ degrees here and my treadmill is in the sun room. Also put on the lotion that is supposed to help you sweat in those places that never sweat. For me it would be arms and thighs. I looked like a bratwurst with the skin wrapped too tight. But I was determined. I only did it for twenty minutes as I was sweating like a pig a a pig roast. But goal accomplished I sweat-ed my butt off. Going to garden now to hoe :P

Weekly Recap May 28- June 3

2011-06-03T21:01:00.004-05:00

Weekly Averages

Average Daily Calores 730

Fat 33.1g

Fat cal291

fat 40%

Saturated 7.4g

fat Cal 66

fat 9%

Carbohydrate

66.5g

266 calories

37%

Protein

41.4g

165 Calories

23%

No big losses this week. I know its probably because the majority of food has been bad carbohydrates: mashed potatoes, puddings and such. Today I got more protein today in. I decided to move onto soft foods not just mushy pureed food and seemed much more satisfied. Today I ate a half cup of almonds that I chewed forever for breakfast, tuna with a little of mayo over some fresh lettuce picked from my garden. Then at dinner I made some crappie fried :( and ate three brocolli florets with a little cheese. Todays calories though only added up to 883. I had astrange episode this afternoon though. While in my garden I was bending over and my vision went strange and I got dizzy. Had to sit but it wouldnt go away. So I laid down for an hour. Dont know what that is about. Tomorrow Im going to do light aerobics and just move. Need to get this thing on a roll :P

Bad Food Choices

2011-06-01T12:13:00.002-05:00

I am 3 weeks post op and I am told by my dietitian not to diet yet but stay on mushy/ pureed foods.In doing that I am gravitating to not so good food choices like pudding, mashed potatoes and cereals.I'm afraid my mindset wont change. I am not satisfied and feel like eating and am eating more than just those three meals.Not sure what I should do. I haven't gained but hasn't moved either.Just getting over TOM's visit so I'm not sure if that has part to do with it cause it started aroundthe time I got the curse Wondering what others do during this stage?My first fill is scheduled June 15th.

Cheap Date

2011-05-29T21:45:00.001-05:00

Went for my first restaurant meal since surgery on May the 11th. I have to get used to not getting to eat certain items. Im still on the mushy stage for foods until my first fill on June 15th. So I picked a cream potato soup. Not great choice calorie wise but Im not supposed to be concerned about that until my first fill. I enjoyed it but my families family go out to meal is steak and seafood. So my son loves Lonestar. The guys got huge Ribeyes.

To date I am down 14 pounds. I started supplements three days ago. Yuk. Chew-ables.

I feel like Im 4.

We have a home group for bible study once a month and yeah we host. So that means I provide the majority of the food. Didnt feel like cooking so bought a coconut cream cake and fruit platter. and I ate yogurt. Had some questions about why I wasnt eating and I just said Im having some stomach issues at moment. Everyone left it at that :)

For some reason I have become addicted to the food network lol. Hooked on Hungry Girl

Liquid/Mushy diet Bites

2011-05-24T16:54:00.001-05:00

Yep its official this liquid/mushy diet sucks royally!
I walked around Wal Mart grocery looking for mushy food I would want to eat and yeah resorted to buying more yogurt and soup.

But I am thinking maybe I will drop some pounds this month.
I have only lost 11 pounds since the surgery 13 days ago. Only woke up with a .5 loss this morning. But I havent been able to walk much cause I do not feel well. I believe its just from lack of nutrients. Tomorrow Im allowed to go on supplements and vitamins and minerals. I am not getting enough protein either, everything Ive found I cant seem to stomach. It is just gross.
I am hoping after talking the supplements and vitamins I will feel stronger.
I am getting plenty of calcium as seems I can tolerate yogurt and milk products well.
Heres hoping to some energetic days soon.

Ups and Downs

2011-05-20T21:32:00.003-05:00

Today I woke up feeling amazing. How I hate that word right now. Amazing. Seems everyone over uses it. But that is how I felt. I jumped out of bed ooops forgetting I had surgery. Amazing because just day before my innards still felt sore. And nothing today. So I felt really spunky. Worked my butt off made payroll, paid weekly taxes, employee child support payments.Something I detest doing. But hey I am legally bound lol. Hate being responsible for what others should have done all along. Another blog subject!
Then it seemed the day went to crap. My emotions are so close to the edge.

I am thinking about food all the time. What the heck. Mary you are not physically hungry!

Theres the key:

Feeling emotional= thinking of food constantly.

I wonder at what age this started for me. I will have to mull that over in my mind. But it hit me like a ton of bricks. I used to eat whether happy or sad. Always a food to celebrate the moments.

I need to find a release other than food when I am feeling emotionally vulnerable.
Something physical would help but that is limited as I am only one week post surgery.

Sex would be another option but husband is away for four days :(
Theres me being very open :) and humorous.

So much to discover about why I am the way I am.
Some things I like, (many things) but so many I dont. But Im a work in progress.

Relief

2011-05-19T18:01:00.001-05:00

Yesterday went to see my care provider. Bandages off, incisions are small except for the one by the port. I think they will heal nicely, not raised or bumpy. Care provider said full liquid diet and follow the handbook they gave me. Well handbook says Im on week two and I can go to pureed foods. So I had a little cottage cheese, oatmeal and and a shake today. Not hungry. She said it will come back but I dont want the hunger to come back.
It gets difficult to be around other people eating. Some of the guys had cheeseburgers for lunch and one had a hot roast beef sandwich and potatoes and gravy. Smelled yummy. Im not hungry but my mouth is watering
I saw a picture of my lovely band. She asked if they put some fluid in my band already. That I could not answer.
I do have some left shoulder pain that comes and goes and not sure what that is.
The terrible gas and bloating has gone and I feel human again.

Im wanting a potato. Dont know why but I do. Maybe my body needs a certain mineral. Cant go on supplements until next week.

Its been one week since my surgery and I have went to work everyday this week. I am pooped but recovering quickly.

I ordered some exercise videos "Zumba Dance" for my Kinect and P90X. I know Im not ready for either yet but getting geared up.

One Week Bites the Dust

2011-05-17T18:27:00.001-05:00

Felt terrific today. What I am really liking is NOT being hungry and well in all honesty I should be. I am not eating and so one would think you should be hungry. NADA. I guess its the band. This is unknown territory for me. Not being hungry. Always wanted to eat. I still think about food. I love food. Im an excellent cook. Im Italian :) I am thinking of what to eat when I can eat. Then I think I wonder if I want to go through all that trouble for just a few bites of it.

I was able to work with little discomfort today. Tommorow I visit my care provider. maybe I can eat mushies then. My calorie content is around 400 - 500 at moment. If I could eat something of substance it probably would be higher. Going to try and get on treadmill (slow pace) for 15. It will help me sleep tonight and well I took another two hour nap. After I heal I wont be able to do that so I am taking full advantage of it. My vegetable garden is looking great. Cant wait to harvest some of that.
Here's to losing.

Day 6 WOrk

2011-05-16T17:27:00.000-05:00

Went in to work today. Very hard to sit at a desk. My stomach is really hard which makes it hard to sit up straight. I hate being slouched over. I even attempted to do billing standing up and leaning down :( I called the doctor cause it seemed strange to be so rock hard in my upper abdomen. But was told that it is perfectly normal. Asked me if I have been passing gas(aka farting lol) I guess thats one way of getting rid of it . He suggested Gas X might help. So chewed two of those babies. Now as a good wife I am cooking the family dinner. Roast, mashed potatoes and corn on the cob. I will enjoy some applesauce and oatmeal.

I am having a mind battle as I am not physically hungry but I want to eat something of substance. Even a beautiful salad sounds so yummy at the moment. This too shall pass.

What Was I Thinking

2011-05-15T14:00:00.002-05:00

I actually had that thought when I woke up from a nap yesterday. All of a sudden it came crashing down on me what I had done. Wow. Do I regret it today, no not one bit. I just realized no huge cheeseburgers again and No binge eating. Maybe its the liquid diet that got to me or maybe it just happens to everyone. Lost 4 pounds so far since Wednesday. I guess thats normal since Im only drinking water and cream soup, some oatmeal and pudding. Doesnt even add to 500 calories. Still very sore. I just want to nap cause my energy level is in the pits. Back to work tomorrow. Not looking forward to sitting at a desk all day. Cant wait until I feel at least strong again.

Day 3 Banded

2011-05-13T18:37:00.002-05:00

Today is the third day since I had weight loss surgery. Very sore. Didnt realize how much you actually use your stomach muscles to do everyday movements. I have 5 small incisions where they did laproscopic surgery. Im full of gas and feel 9 months pregnant. Cant eat very much. Just ate some pudding and a bowl of soup. Have to be on liquids for a few weeks. Cant diet for a month. Kind of hard to when you are limited to liquids like yogurt and pudding and soup. I cant wait to get my life back. I ask God to give me strength to accomplish my goals to be healthy and happier.

Officially Banded

2011-05-11T19:37:00.000-05:00

Had a rough night before heading to the city to check in for surgery. I havent had a dream of my deceased grandmother in years. She was a RN and a DON who I respect she told me in the dream that she didnt think it was a good idea. Just great. I aldready had fears of not waking up. I do have an over active imagination. Thank goodness it was just my mind playing tricks on me as I went to bed nervouse and apprehensive about surgery.
As you can see I woke up lol.
Had some concerns cause anesthisia makes me vomit but they loaded me up with medicine not to vomit.
I am so sore. I am amazed at how much I used my stomach muscles to do every day movements like getting up from a reclining position or getting up from a seated position.
I guess work through the pain.
Theres a little bleeding from the incision sites(5) but they said that was normal.
Not interested in eating.
Too much trauma to want to. So far had one serving jello and one cup clear broth and some apple juice.
Go home tomorrow. Cant wait.

Check out this huge potty. Never seen one that big before

New Direction

2011-04-30T10:28:00.002-05:00

I know it has been a really long time. So many stress factors in my life up unitl this point. Recently my grandson came to live with me. He is 14 and I thought I was done with raising children when my son went to college :) Due to circumstances out of his control he is now living with me. So another life change. I am glad he is here. he is flourishing leaps and bounds. But the stress surrounding his coming here has totally gotten me off track. It sounds like an excuse but I always put myself last.
Needless to say I have gained 45 pounds back that I lost. So failure once again.

I have decided through my doctors counsel also to forgo using HCG.
I am scheduled to have lap band surgery on May the 11th.
Yeah big directional switch.

This blog will have that direction from now on.
Thank you to all the lovely women out there who supported me during HCG.

Burnt Out

2011-03-10T08:47:00.002-06:00

I am taking a long sabbatical from HCG. I cant devote all the energy it takes. I have tried numerous times to get back on the wagon and failed everytime. Right now I Have my grand son living with me. Stress is just not my friend. So Im going to do Weight Watchers until I can get a grip.

Mini Skirt Tryouts

2010-08-04T21:02:00.001-05:00

Ok I am nuts. Yes its official. Went and bought a couple of mini skirts ha!. Im still in a size 18 but O well. Still have to be sexy right. Well I do need to work on the legs but the a$$ is looking pretty good Im told. :P

HCG and Semen

2010-07-29T16:52:00.003-05:00

Ok ladies. Dr S. mentioned that semen might be bad for you while on the HCG diet. It seems that the average dose equals a teaspoon of sugar and 20 calories. Sorry boys but I would rather eat a cucumber for less calories and no sugar :)
A little HCG humor.

Plus Size Controversy

2010-07-22T19:58:00.002-05:00

I never considered a size 10 to be a plus size.

Plus model shocked ât photos made her skinny

Despite her recent weight loss, plus-size model Crystal Renn says she was shockedâ when she saw photographs taken for an ad campaign that were retouched to make her appear thinner.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/38358982#38358982

Downside

2010-07-21T21:46:00.002-05:00

12 pounds down. Along with being ex static at my losses. I have had a physical setback.
While on vacation in Italy I had a terrible toothache. Upon arriving home I forgot about it as the discomfort went away. Lo and behold after biting into something it just crumbled. I should have been taking the supplements and I ha vent grrrr. Dentist appointment in the morning and hoping I can get it capped. (I think its called an eye tooth. Not all the way in front but enough that I wont smile big) Upside I ordered my supplements and they came. I don't need any more side effects of rapid weight loss. I'm hoping for a cap or if all else fails Ill might go for veneers. Either way I am hoping and praying they can help me :)

Sexy Plus Size

2010-07-13T17:43:00.000-05:00

Very sexy and shes not a size one! Love this website for plus size lingerie.

www.hipsandcurves.com

Back for Another Round

2010-06-22T14:20:00.004-05:00

Started another round yesterday. We took two weeks and went on vacation. Had 10 wonderful days in Italy. I weighed myself to see if I would gain. I decided since I was in my home country there was no way I was going to be on p3. I totally intended to eat anything I wanted. And I did. I discovered that my Italian food tasted better lol. Though I enjoyed it immensely. We walked at least 5 miles everyday. We toured Rome, Florence and Venice. I ate Gelato about 4 times. It was awesome. The best ice cream I have ever ate. I was worried I gained weight while gone. But thankfully with all the walking I lost 4 pounds. It was a wonderful time with my husband and son and his girlfriend. My husband and I have plans to go back without the kids. Maybe some romance then :P I will have to post pictures later as blogger is being squirrely right now and wont let me.

Summer is Here

2010-05-30T20:31:00.005-05:00

Bought for the first time in years two summer dresses. Halter type. Well Im not skinny enough for me to wear out in public but I did plan on wearing it around the house. My son saw it on and is not used to seeing cleavage and bare shoulders on his mom. He didnt like. He was like "you have got to be kidding" lol O well teenage son didnt like but my husband did. I did wear a skirt along with muck boots to till my veggie garden. My employees got a kick out of that. Girly kinda lol.

Half Way There

2010-04-09T20:14:00.003-05:00

last night went to my son's ballgame. I thought I had totally blown it cause it was 40 degrees out and windy and I was so cold. So what I do I had me a cup of hot cocoa. I thought surely I had blown it. But I didnt eat dinner that night so I woke up to a 1.8 loss and reached my 50 pound loss mark! So now Im at 50.8 pounds gone forever.Im very very happy. Started Monday with injections and its friday now. And I have lost t he 5 pounds of loading weight and an additional 6 new pounds lost. Not too bad considering that stupid TOM showed his face. I hope this continues but if not my goal is 25 this round. That wont bring me under 200 but very close. Then after our vacation in June I can do another. Im very excited to think that by the time summer is over I could be another 45 pounds lighter if not more. I so want to be a healthy weight. Along with the health the cuter clothes and cheaper lol.
Good luck all my fellow losers.

R3 D4 :)

2010-04-08T08:06:00.002-05:00

Woke up with another 1.8 pounds lost. Whoot! 49 pounds to date gone forever :) Looks like I will reach my 50 pound mark tommorow. Im hungry and feeling tired like I want to sleep an additional 4 hours. I guess I will drink some water or hot tea until lunch. Like expected TOM showed up. Seems I always get it the first week on HCG Oh well. Im at that age I cant really say when I get it cause Im not regular. TMI lol
This too shall pass.

O Happy Day

2010-04-07T10:10:00.001-05:00

Happy Day. Day 3 of VLCD. Load weight all gone and lost an additional 2.2 new pounds.
Having trouble consuming all necessary water. Yuk. Miss my Crystal Light Lemonade.
Not hungry just trying to stay away from food.
Had to cook later for my family cause of baseball. So they were eating breakfast type meal @ 7 pm consisting of Eggs, Bacon and Pancakes. It smelled realy good. O well I had my chicken earlier in the day with an apple and a cucumber.

The best way for me to be successful is for me to keep busy busy busy!

Here We Go Again

2010-04-04T15:03:00.003-05:00

Tomorrow is first day of R3 VLCD. Biting NAILS. Planned on doing load days this weekend as we were going away for the weekend to celebrate our 20th anniversary as well as his 50th birthday. But went and forgot to pack the shots. O well I thoroughly plumped up the fat cells anyway. So far and the day isn't over and I gained 3.5 pounds. Ouch. Had to be the potatoes and ice cream and chocolate covered cherries mmmmmmmmmm I will pay for it this week. Not worried though. Did the measurements and it seems a few things have shifted once again. Not to mention almost 3 inches gained. It will be gone by the end of the week. Only problem is TOM should show up any day but Im not going to let that get in the way. Im ready to lose another twenty. I have hardly any clothes to wear but happy to report I can wear an 18. Thats a biggy for me. Haven't seen that for over 10 years. The weather is getting warmer and it isnt bothering me. Another blessing about losing weight. trying not to spend any money on clothes right now. I will shop before our vacation in June. By then I should be in a 16 and my daughter said she has some crops and stuff for me that she cant wear anymore. But what a bummer I will have to buy a few nice things :) Wish me luck on losing. I have been absent but doing well on maintenance. Actually was down a half a pound of my LIW before the binge.

Here goes everything. :P

Things I Learned While Riding my Bike

2010-03-07T08:24:00.002-06:00

1. I am not very coordinated. I can trip over my own feet and fall out of a boat into the lake lol

2. I am out of shape way more than I thought.

Yesterday was just down right beautiful. Finally got up to 60 degrees. So earlier in the day we went to the big town to get the kids passport pictures. And I bought my helmet for the bike. My son said if I tried it on in the store he was leaving Ha I tried it on.

So after returning home. I cleaned out the flower beds, tilled the vegetable garden and raked out the clumps of debris and then decided to ride the bike. Well needless to say I wont be ready for the road for awhile. I will just ride it up and down my driveway which around my property is a half a mile. So 2 rounds on that and I was wiped out. But the upside is I am more active than usual.

Unhealthiest Salad's Darn Mine is on the List

2010-03-05T14:54:00.003-06:00

Bummer Applebees is on the stinking list . But its so yummy but 1500 calories. Yikes.
Check out the info

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Hevnt Seen You in a Long Time

2010-02-19T21:30:00.002-06:00

Love getting a "you look really good".
Husband came home from Haiti Thursday. Had to make an appointment with the doctor for him. Poor baby came home sick. So found out it was an inner ear infection along with sinus infection. But he felt well enough to go to favorite Mexican restaurant. Haven't been there except for once since October and the owner wasn't there. So he saw me and did a double take. New hairdo and I'm not sure he knew it was me(giggles).
He kept staring at me. Saying its been a long time! So after our meal he came over and chit chatted it up for a few minutes. He then told me I was looking good and looked at Jim and smiled. So yeah that made my day.
Holding on to that 45.
And yes I ate some things I shouldn't have. A few chips and a a couple spoonfuls of rice. I found that a little here and there doesn't hurt me nor change the scale but a half a pound up and down and I can deal with that.
Anyway I had a great moral boost for today.

Before and After Pic

2010-02-14T08:41:00.002-06:00

Before and Not So After. 4 months of Dieting. Cant believe how fat my face and everything got. O well changing my mindset and changing my future. 45 pounds lost so far and 57 inches gone forever.

Lovers and Others

2010-02-14T07:22:00.002-06:00

Couldn't think of a title but figured it fit for valentines day :P

My valentine for this holiday was my mom. She started HCG about two weeks ago and has lost 15 pounds. She is diabetic. Hoping after losing weight she can be done with all her diabetic medications. Well she took a planned interruption to go out with me. So dinner and a movie. Applebees Ribs Yum. I gained a .5 pound from dinner last night but I am so ok with that. So going to walk today do some Pilate's and maybe a little floor exercises to tone up a few giggly spots. Tomorrow back to the pool and the gym.

Got that blasted measuring tape out. So this round only lost 8 inches but that makes a total of 57 since Oct 2009. Amazing how most of my inches were lost on the first round.

So maintaining for now! Good luck on reaching your goals all you lucky losers :)

New Hair for the New Me :P

2010-02-12T20:50:00.003-06:00

Husband likes it. I always wait till he is gone before I do something drastic to myself. One day it will be the boob job :P

Staying Alive lol

2010-02-12T19:11:00.002-06:00

I was reminded by a sweet email that I have totally slacked off on blogging. Its true. Guilty as charged. super super busy. Husbands in Haiti and we have two businesses with 15 male employees here. So while he is gone I do double the work. Im now on maintenance with a 20 pound loss this past round. Didnt reach my 50 pound goal but happy with losing a total of 45 pounds. Some highlights were shopping for my mother of the bride dress and am in a size 18 dress. So in dresses Im 3 sizes down. jeans are a different story some are 18 some are not lol. Higlight today was water aerobics and then some toning on machines. used the eliptical and some others. Need to tighten up alot. I lost weight in some weird places. ALot on my boobs and underarms lol. Seems like I lost more weight in my upper body than anywhere else. Have not lost one inch on my arms ugh. So one month then Ill do another round. I need to measure tommorow morning so I can gauge what the workout will do. Will promise to post more. It is good for the soul and helps you keep you eyes on the goal and my goal is a size 7. :P

Updates

2010-02-04T20:51:00.002-06:00

So after an absence of sorts. What is new? Ended p2 of r2 about a week ago. Too much stress going on. Earthquake in Haiti and we have children and friends there. Couldnt handle it and be on a diet. Well ended r2 with a 20 pound loss so counting my blessings!. Only 1 pound over my LIW. Ended r2 short but its ok. I plan on finishing my shots starting this monday after super bowl sunday :) Company coming over. Dinner theatre this saturday so I plan on enjoying myself before I go for another 10 pound loss. Then on maintenance for 3 weeks then back on the protocol right before my daughters wedding. Sounds like a plan right. Lets hope I can stick with it. Trying to reach onederland before the wedding. Crossing fingers :P

Good news is that all of our friends in Haiti are fine. The school we are building is still standing. The only up hill battle is keeping our orphanages stocked with food and water. But we have come this far so I think we can do just fine. Believing only good things.

Going for the 50

2010-01-17T21:31:00.000-06:00

Ok so back on track again. Holding on the 20 pound loss for this round. So 5 more pounds and I reach my 50 pound goal. So 8 more days on the injections then breaking for a week and doing p3. Its my birthday and I need a break. And if and when I reach the 50 pounds I will be very happy and should reach that by then. We had tickets bought for a dinner theatre and Im excited about that. Never been and I can do p3 there. So both those in one week. Then back on the vlcd.
My daughter is having a wedding in April. So hoping I look good

MIA

2010-01-15T20:06:00.002-06:00

On a personal note. As I dont publish alot of personal information because it is the internet. I felt compelled to say why I have been MIA so to speak. We have had a ministry in Haiti for 19 years. We are building a school on the outskirts of Port Au Prince. We also have 9 orphanages that we support. Not only do we minister to the people of Haiti but we consider them friends.

Needless to say it hasnt been a very constructive week for dieting. Still taking injections but I have blown it a few times. And I have gained two pounds. Trying to get back on track as we are getting good reports from our friends.
So far we have heard from most of the childrens homes and they have not suffered damage. We still have not heard if our school project is still standing. I am hoping so. We also have not heard about one orphanage in Carrefour. Carrefour was the center of the earthquake. Im still hoping against hope that we will hear some good news about the children there.

Just a personal note. I know there are praying people on this site.

Our Pictures

R2 D15 20 Pounds Lost

2010-01-10T13:30:00.003-06:00

So I set a goal of at least reaching a 20 pound loss on R2. So far I have reached that and it is day 15. I am aking a break February 2 for three days cause we are going to a dinner theatre. I will be ready to eat by then :)I will eat p3 foods that day and then finish my injections the day's after.
I am pretty happy with the way it is going so far. Ive done better than I expected. I only lost 25 on R1 so ya Im happy with 15 days in losing 20.
All I can say is water water water. It helps.
For some reason today at church I got alot of compliments. I guess it takes losing 1/3 of your weight before anyone really notices. Someone even tried to pull up my sweater lol. And I got a skinny remark. (no way near skinny) I am not publishing to anyone Im on a diet. Just a few close people know. But its nice when someone notices :P

Day 11 VLCD R2

2010-01-06T07:13:00.004-06:00

"Wow, your getting skinny girl"
That is what my husband said this morning. Maybe it was partially because I am wearing a pair of fat girl pants that I also wore when I was 40 pounds heavier. Its wonderful to be able to moon someone without having to unzip your pants lol.
Only had a 1 pound loss sice yesterday. That might be due to I ate a wonderful taco salad. I used a tomato as a fruit and romaine lettuce. It was great and worth it. I wont do that for another week. Beef and I dont do well on HCG.

Have a great day all my fellow losers.

42.2 Pounds Adios and Never Return

2010-01-05T08:32:00.000-06:00

Whoopie 2.2 pounds since yesterday.

I just had to get on and tell that. I am going to go and take measurements. I took them before I started round 2 so Im curious if I lost any inches. I will add those as soon as I know. I have officially lost 1/3 of my weight I need to. My outlook is up. I feel as if I can really do this.

I have taken ugly pictures of my before but I am not going to post them until I have reached my goal. One they are too depressing for me. But when I do lose the weight I will post them for other woman who are at my weight to give some encouragement that it is not an impossible feat.

To think that last year at this time I went into a consultation for lap band surgery. I am so glad I didnt. For one that is saving me 17,000 dollars. I was willing to pay it to lose weight. But I am thankful I found out about this weight loss. It is re-teaching me the proper way to think about food and how to relate to it. On top of all that the benefits of breaking my addiction to bad carbs. And the best part of all the benefit of reviving my metabolism. I think with the yo yo dieting I killed it

Im off to get some paperwork done and to measure.

40 Pounds Gone Forever

2010-01-04T12:34:00.002-06:00

Woke up to a nice loss again of 1.2 Miss the daily 2 pound loss but hey its a loss. And thats before I finally had some potty action. OMG havent gone in almost a week. But I made up for it ha

So today marks a 40 pounds loss!

I have so far to go but I will mark this occasion as special.
Started this Oct 1, 2009. Im hoping by this time next year I will at least be close to my goal of 150.

Day 8

2010-01-02T21:30:00.003-06:00

Only had a loss of.4 but Im on you know what. Took a detox bath. My daughter told me about it on the HCG forums. So hey Im up for anything that might help. Baking soda and epsom salt and hot bath for 20 minutes. I guess people use it to detox and to break stalls. I just figured I could use a detox, couldnt everyone. I should have measured today but my planned day of cleaning my husband changed. So off to the big town we went. I only had an apple while he and my grandson at braums cheeseburgers. The smell filled the cab of the truck. Smelled so yummy it made me lose my appetite. Not for the cheseburger but for the apple. Didnt finish it. Upside of the day was that while we looked for end tables for his office we also bought a new bed and dressor for our bedroom. So pretty.

Here is a picture. Then went to Bed Bath and Beyond for the bedding. Happy Birthday to me but its not until the end of the month :)

1st Day

2010-01-01T17:30:00.002-06:00

Yes its a new year. Looking forward to a thinner me. One who can actuall do the stuff she has wanted to for a long time. Like go to a beach and not feel like the only fat girl there. Looking forward to this summer. At the rate I am going i should be 80 pounds lighter than last summer. That gives me goose bumps just thinking about it. I havent skinny dipped in so long. Cant wait. TOM showed up which slowed my weight loss down to a pound. But ok its normal. Drinking loads of water and cinnamon tea. Much accomplished today. The HCG seems to give me more energy I think. 6 loads of laundry done. Decorations taking down. A wonderful 45 minute nap now dinner for the family.
Happy New Year all you losers out there :)

Another Day :) and TMI

2009-12-30T09:39:00.004-06:00

Upping my dosage seems to be helping overall. Had a 2.2 loss since yesterday. Did the deed and was told I was getting bony in a few spots. LMBO. Asked if he got hurt lol I always said you cant break a big girl when it comes to that :P
I have been pretty energetic in the mornings. Not sure if its because of the double dose I take early or what. But it helps with end of the year paperwork. Rearranged my office. So yeah for me.
Well that's all for now.
Seeing as I haven't posted a funny in awhile here goes:

Back in the Saddle Again

2009-12-28T10:33:00.000-06:00

Woke up with a 4.2 loss. So in 2 days almost lost all of that cheating weight. Cant wait to start dropping some real pounds. I upped my dosage to help stave off hunger for the first week. Then Ill probably take the just one shot. I will see how it goes and try and isten to my body. Seriously have drank enough water to float a small boat.

Things I Have Learned Off Protocol

2009-12-26T17:45:00.002-06:00

One thing I have learned is that going off protocol can quickly bring disasterous results and quickly. Secondly I feel so much more better while on protocol and while not deviating. Thirdly water is very important. It helps stave off hunger and helps the HCG do its thing. Like flush the fat out. Amazingly I like life better on protocol. Going one week off of protocol had me gaining the ten pounds I lost on being on round two for two weeks. So after getting my crap together and putting to rest again for another year the grieving of not having my daughter with me. I am ready to get er done :)I cant wait to use my bike. I wish it wasnt raining and snowing.

New Start Tomorrow

2009-12-25T20:18:00.002-06:00

Well after a week of totally blowing it I will start back on the injections and the 500 calorie diet tomorrow. I think I can do it now that I am more emotionally stable again. I am afraid to get on the scale though. My bodily functions are so out of whack. I had to take ex lax two days in a row so ya what fun. Anywho I am ready. Wish me luck.
I had a great Christmas. I got a touring bike. 21 speed. Whoot. O and a fountain for my living room. Great day.

Totally Off Track

2009-12-21T20:01:00.002-06:00

Well today has been my third day of being totally off track. I stopped taking the injections yesterday because I have totally blown it. Thinking maybe starting another round on the anniversarry of my daughters death was a very bad idea. I thought I would be fine. Its been over 10 years but no. Amazing how you think you can handle something but under the surface stuff just wants to explode. So I plaaned an interruption anyway for christmas eve and day. Maybe after the holiday I can focus and not be bogged down with grief. I hate that I was weak and I am very dissappointed in myself. I really wanted to drop another 20 pounds. I will start fresh again New Years or sooner. God I hope I dont pack on the pounds. Just feeling a little lost and dont really care at the moment. Praying for a break and to regain my composure.

Disappointed

2009-12-17T19:38:00.004-06:00

Well down a whole whopping.4 UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! So frustrating. I dont believe tommorow will be better cause yep I went off protocol of a sorts. Joined mu husband and a friend to pick up materials and also got a pedicure and manicure. So not only did I use products off protocol but also they went out for mexican. I ordered a small fajita lunch and ate the onions and the beef. I believe by the looks of it I probably ate more protein than I should have.

I guess there are worse things to cheat on. Didnt eat any tortillas but I am sure I will pay dearly for this.

And all that after I was told by someone that I look amazing!

Disappointed

2009-12-17T19:38:00.001-06:00

1st Day of Week 3 Round 2

2009-12-15T19:21:00.000-06:00

Well apple day was a success. Lost two pounds. Hope this starts things again. This day begins week 3 hope I can loose at least 7 pounds before my interruption on the holidays. Not fretting too much cause I am thankful for getting this far. Tommorow will be stressful as I will have to shop and not be in the protection of my own office and home ugh! Have to shop for the groceries for the xmas party for my employees. Then the fun will be of cooking all that yummy mexican food I cant eat. O well. Heres to a smaller butt lol.

Lessons Learned

2009-12-14T19:06:00.000-06:00

Ok didnt cheat but saw a gain of .8. What did I do.
Maybe it was the fact that I tanned saturday. Yep sure did. Got tired of my pasty white skin and put my butt in my tanning bed. My reasoning was surely it couldnt be THAT bad. I read where it does make your body have a chemical reaction. OK so DR. S. does know what he was talking about. Sure I got a little color but I also saw a gain and nothing foreign entered these lips.
Like I said Lesson Learned. Wont do that again.
So to make up for my stupidity I am doing an apple day
See what that brings tommorow.
Four apples eaten Blah!
Last time I did this was during a stall and I lost 3 pounds and started losing again. Crossing fingers and going to bed early

Just for Fun

2009-12-13T20:55:00.001-06:00

1. What was the highlight of your week?
Reaching my 30lb loss

2. Whose car were you in last?
My Tahoe

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Tonight :)

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
White

5. How long is your hair?
Shoulder length

6. Are you good looking?
Yes

7. Last movie you watched?
A Christmas Carol

8. Who were you with?
Grandkids

9. Last thing you ate?
Cucumbers and chicken

10. Last thing you drank?
Dasani Water

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
Long time

12. Who came over last?
LA

13. Are you happy right now?
Yes

14. What did you say last?
Dont remeber

15. Where is your phone?
On side table

16. What color are your eyes?
Blackish brown

17. Are you left-handed?
NO

18. Spell your name without vowels:
:(

19. Do you have any pets?
Yes An Alaskan Husky

20. Favorite Vacation?
This coming spring trip

21. What do you dislike currently?
Nothing

22. What are you listening to?
Giants football game

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Chcolate but cant have it

24. What is your favorite scent?
Musk

25. Who makes you happiest?
Family and Friends

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping

27. When is your birthday?
January 30th

28. Who has the same phone as you?
Tiffany, Nick

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
Years

30. Do you read your horoscope?
NO

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Online, JcPenny

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Great LA colored it

33. Do you bite your nails?
No

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Yes

36. Myspace or facebook?
Both

37. How fast have you driven a car?
80

38. Have you ever smoked?
Yes

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
History

40. Do you have Verizon?
Yes

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
Confident

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
MMMMMM HMMMM lol

43. Favorite Song?
Too many. But "Who AM I" is a favorite

44. Do you like to sing at all?
Yes

45. Dream Job?
No job

46. Where does most of your family live?
Missouri

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have 1 sister 3 brothers

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Yes very

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Time to weigh

50. Do you drink?
Water

51. Know any other languages?
A little french

52. Ever write a coded message?
No

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
No

54. Do you have any children?
Yes 4

55. Did you take a nap today?
Yes whoo hoo

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Not sure

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
No

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
No thanks

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Yea a few, people who cant drive and self righteous persons to name two

60. Are you multitasking right now?
No

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
No

62. What is your least favorite chore?
Bathrooms

63. Last place you drove your car?
Church

64. Ever been out of the country?
Yes Haiti numerous times

65. Where were you born?
New York

66. Could you handle being in the military?
No

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
200

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
Work tommorow

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Few days ago

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
About 30 now. I just recently gave a bunch of stuff away

71. Are your toes always painted?
No but they will be this week

72. How many piercings do you have?
7

73. What are you doing today?
Church and getting hair colored, laundry

74. Have you ever been gambling?
Yes once

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
Daily

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
NO

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
Yes

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Dexter

79. Last thing you cooked?
Fried chicken for my men and baked chicken and cucumbers for me

80. How's the weather?
Nice

81. Do you e-mail?
YES

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Send my husband some sexy pictures lol

83. Last time you were sick?
Long time

84. What states have you lived in?
New York, Pennsylvania and Missouri

85. Do you wish you could move?
No

87. What is your dream car?
A Benz

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
No

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
Italy

90. Are you happy with your life?
Yes

Measurements 46.5 Inches Lost (Released lol)

2009-12-12T12:14:00.000-06:00

Measured and I havent since I was in middle of p3. Happily I have lost an additional nine inches. Total since on HCG 46.5 inches. Not bad for 2.5 months. This totally makes it worth it. I got a wow from a girlfriend I only see every couple of weeks. I said "can you really notice" she said omg yes

I receieved my smart carb bread. Its in the freezer waiting for p3 and p4. Cant wait.

Needed that pick me up.

Emotional Eating

2009-12-11T19:14:00.000-06:00

This time of year is very difficult as I know it is for alot of people. 11 years ago this time of year I was expecting to deliver a healthy baby girl. I developed toximina and was put into the hospital repeatedly. In the end I delivered a full term stillborn little girl. Her birth day is December 19th. Sounds like a good reason to emotionally eat. I can feel the pangs of wanting to every now and then along with the wanting to just crawl into bed and not come out.
But just like 11 years ago I go about the daily duties of preparing for the holidays all the while grieving silently.
I dont sorrow like most people who have no hope because I do believe she is alive with my Lord. But it doesnt change the fact that she is not with me.

On a lighter note:
The things I would like to eat emotionally are a big fat bacon cheeseburger and fries. Maybe some butter pecan ice cream and lets see some chinese food would really hit the spot.

Did go shopping for christmas but decided to try and some clothes. Ya I went and bought a skinnier pair of jeans that I cant get into yet but will after this round. Good reason not to cheat. And a pretty silver shiny sweater for the christmas party

Party TIme

2009-12-10T08:06:00.004-06:00

Down 32 pounds this morning. Actually 32.8 pounds. Very very happy. Its so hard to do Christmas shopping and all the temptation out there. Its a whole lot easier just staying in my office or home doing the usual. But out there in the hustle and bustle and all the yummy smells. OMG makes you just want to eat something yummy. Poor husband we cant go out and eat while Im on round 2. We went shopping yesterday and he said if I didn't mind he was going to get something to eat. Sure honey go feed your face while I cant feed mine. HMMMMM lol. Actually I just try and shrug it off. keep busy. Try and keep mind off food. Not looking forward to holiday. I do all the cooking. Christmas eve wil be Italian. Lasagne cheesecake etc. Christmas day turkey and everything else. I might do an interruption On that day. Not sure. I need to do some investigating. If it will harm me I wont if I can get by with just a little stall I will. Decisions decisions.

Party TIme

2009-12-10T08:06:00.001-06:00

2 More Pounds Yippie

2009-12-08T07:53:00.002-06:00

Down 2 pounds since yesterday. Day before was only .4 cause TOM showed up. Im a happy camper. ONly a half pound shy of losing 30 pounds and Im really excited. I need to do my measurements :) Yesterday was depressing I felt very hugry emotionally I think. So I went to bed at 6:30. I will keep you posted :P

Happy Camper

2009-12-06T12:39:00.002-06:00

Happy camper. 2.4 pounds lost since yesterday. Husband came home since being gone for a week. So I got some needed excercise lol

Just love getting up and getting on
that scale especially when it is nice to me.

I dont know if anyone else on this group has tried it but I ordered some more Julian Bread. It has only 1 net carb and is protocol safe. It didnt affect my weight on p3 but I only had it like 2 times a week. It is great toasted.

Its not cheap but worth it.

Down 4.8 Pounds Load Weight Almost Gone

2009-12-05T20:04:00.002-06:00

Woke up to a 2.8 pound loss whoot! Happy camper my load day weight is almost gone. Well went shopping today and spent a good part of the day pulling my pants up. Resorted to folding the top part over so I wouldnt have to keep hiking them up. I guess there could be worse things. I refuse to have a muffin top so I will wait to buy some new jeans when they are totally unwearable. Went shopping trying to find an outfit for our company christmas party. When I lost the 25 pounds I decided to give away my fat girls clothes. I could still fit into some but I refuse to wear them again. They reminded me of my fat frumpy OLD self. So not going there. Nope nada not happening. So now I need something nice so I look hott infront of all the employees wives.

I crack myself up seriously. I wouldnt do that.

I went christmas shopping in the big town and couldnt bring any food, well cause I forgot my apple but bought some water.

Very tempted. McDonalds was beckoning me bit I resisted. Instead at 4 pm I stopped at walmart to get groceries and found some precooked fajita meat and bought some apples and my favorite water Dasani!. Ate that chicken in the car along with my apple. I was hungry

Looking forward to seeing what the scale does since I only had the equivelant of one meal on the protocol. Seeing if that does anything different on the scale.

Wonder if anyone has fasted on the HCG?

Day 2 of VLCD

2009-12-04T11:08:00.002-06:00

Yes yesterday was hard. I am so stinking fickle. First I dont want it then I do. Kinda sounds like my sex life.

Thankfully I found a site that has a accepted salad dressing for p2 of the protocol. Very yummy. Its a god send for sure. Here is link: Pounds and Inches Away
It will make plain spinach and greens awesome and tolerable.

So I had a great loss of 2.2 pounds. ...........

Breakfast: apple

Lunch: chicken and onions stir fried with water lol

Dinner: chicken on a large bed of raw spinach with pounds and inches away dressing.

I did not get all my water in so that is something I have to work on today.

Im taking care of a recovering puppy and trying to catch up on paperwork. Husbands out of town and running two companies. So no stress there

Have a great day Losers ! I crack myself up. You too maintainers!

R2 P2 D1 of VLCD

2009-12-03T08:22:00.002-06:00

Woke up with exactly a 5 pound gain for load days. Yikes hope thats normal. Actually looking forward to not eating. Back on the bottle again lol. Water bottle that is. Wish me lots of luck.

R2 D2 P1

2009-12-02T22:17:00.002-06:00

Here piggy piggy. I swear that how I feel. Like a big fat pig. Load days arent all they are cracked up to be.
So here is the list of foods consumed:
Snickers bar
8 Crab Rangoon
Hot Wings
Baked Potato
Starbucks Mocha Frapuccino
Deesnt seem like much on paper but I feel like poop. Someone run the totals for me lol. Well forgot to weigh this morning so a little scared to see how much of a gain I will have after load says. Wondering what the average gain is on round 2?

Goodnight :P

R2 P1 D1

2009-12-01T19:53:00.000-06:00

So this loading(aka gorging days) are difficult. Why in the world when you can eat you dont want too. Crazy. So gorge day is here. Well Ive had two cheeseburgers some Mexican food a few pieces of candy and I guess I should eat something really yummy and full of fat before I go to bed. Go figure lol.

My Puppy Tiffin

2009-11-30T17:40:00.002-06:00

The doctor believes we caught the parvo very early. They put her on iv's and admitted her Saturday. We haven't been able to see her but they or we have called everyday. She hasn't been vomiting and no blood in her stool. Shes weak still but alert. They say we can probably pick her up Wednesday. She will have to be on a strict diet and in quarantine for a month. I will be getting alot of exercising as i cant just let her run loose like we usually do on our 10 acres. I will have to walk her a few times a day so she gets her exercise and goes potty in certain areas. So just like any sick kid I'm going to have to baby her. She will be bumming cause she wont be able to have any treats o well. Ill be on p2 and i cant have any either lol.
Thank you for all the well wishes for her.

Only 1/2 Pound Over My LIW

2009-11-28T17:36:00.003-06:00

Seems those 5 pounds are coming off by themselves without me having to do steak days. I just upped my protein to the max and cut down on the veggies. God I love those vegetables. Thats what I missed the most on p2. Well I have my appointment set for Monday the 30th @ 2pm to pick up my injections of HCG. She suggested I double up every other day since I am starting it sooner than 12 weeks. But we will see how that goes. Anyhow I am ready to start losing again. Never thought losing weight could be addictive :P

Down a Pound After Thanksgiving Day

2009-11-27T11:42:00.004-06:00

Yep this bod is a fickle one, while I didnt indulge I didnt expect to be down a pound either. All I had different was a crustless piece of pumpkin pie made without sugar. It was yummy and some other stuff that was p3 friendly but I felt stuffed and I thought surely it would bite me in the big ole butt. But was nicely surprised that the scale went down. Whoot. So now I am just 2 pounds over my LIW. Maybe my body is finding its correct weight. Who knows anymore. Im just really happy to start another round this week. Our puppy Tiffin who is an Alaskan husky and only 7 months old is sick today. I am praying its not Parvo which can be fatal in puppies. She doesnt want to get up and move. We have a 2 pm appointment for test. So if you read this and you believe in prayer please say one for her.

Not to Bad

2009-11-26T20:16:00.002-06:00

But the scale be the judge. Well ate a piece of sugar free crustless pumpkin pie and some cream echeese stuffed celery along with some stuffed jalepenos. Upside is I didnt touch the mashed potatoes or the dressing and rolls. Strictly ate turkey and veggies.Im going to start another round next week. So the cheesecake will be frozen until my load day. Ha so there!